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Hold Still

Written by Nina LaCour

Narrated by Emma Galvin

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

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An arresting story about starting over after a friend's suicide, from a breakthrough new voice in YA fiction.

Devastating, hopeful, hopeless, playful . . . in words and illustrations, Ingrid left behind a painful farewell in her journal for Caitlin. Now Caitlin is left alone, by loss and by choice, struggling to find renewed hope in the wake of her best friend's suicide. With the help of family and newfound friends, Caitlin will encounter first love, broaden her horizons, and start to realize that true friendship didn't die with Ingrid. And the journal which once seemed only to chronicle Ingrid's descent into depression, becomes the tool by which Caitlin once again reaches out to all those who loved Ingrid—and Caitlin herself.

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Release dateJan 1, 2009
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Nina LaCour

NINA LACOUR is the Michael L. Printz award-winning and nationally bestselling author of Watch Over Me, We Are Okay, Hold Still, and Everything Leads to You. She hosts the podcast Keeping a Notebook and teaches for Hamline University's MFA in writing for Children and Young Adults program. A former indie bookseller and high school English teacher, she lives with her family in San Francisco.

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  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    "Hold Still" deals with sixteen-year-old Caitlin coming to terms with her best friend's suicide. As she battles with grief, anger, confusion and guilt, Caitlin gradually comes to heal and reconnect with life with the help of her photography, Ingrid's diary and two school friends, Dylan and Taylor.Through Caitlin's flashbacks and Ingrid's journal entries we learn about the two girls' close friendship. The inclusion of the diary also gives insight into Ingrid's troubled mind, but I think it could have been developed further as the reader never fully understands what leads to Ingrid's death. Caitlin is a good, but not great, protagonist, and personally my favourite character in the book is Dylan. She is tough, upfront, and a true friend to Caitlin. This book is a welcome change from the fantasy/paranormal genre that is flooding YA fiction and deals with some heavy subjects including teenage suicide, depression, homosexuality, self-harming and first sexual encounters. Although a good read I felt there was something lacking and I never felt fully engaged with the story.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    this is so beautiful
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Really liked the majority of this book; I cried out loud a few times, and laughed, too. I didn't like the theater part; it felt too unrealistic, and I'm still not sure how I feel about the Jayson situation.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Well, that was a fast read. Five, six hours? It's not a long book, but still. I devoured it.I was expecting a book about suicide. I knew that it was from the perspective of a girl whose friend committed suicide, so maybe I shouldn't have been surprised, but it turns out that this is really a book about grief. There's not a whole lot of exploration about Ingrid's mindset or her reasons for committing suicide. Instead, it's all about Caitlin trying to make her way through the aftermath. I haven't lost anyone to suicide, but I have experienced loss. And this was one of the most accurate depictions of grief I've ever read. How there's a before and an after, and the after is strangely normal even though everything has changed and the normal is like a slap in the face because surely the world should be different now. How badly people tend to deal with a grieving person, because know there's nothing that will make anything better and it makes us uncomfortable and so we just avoid the situation. And what makes it all so much worse for Caitlin is that Ingrid chose to leave.This book was staggeringly emotional for me. Not just the rawness of the grief, but also the slow emergence back into life. New friendships, reconnecting with family, letting go. It wasn't a pleasant read, but it was really powerful.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    this is was a great book i loved the reader
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This book was deep and I loved it.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    4.5 Stars

    “The sun stopped shining for me is all. The whole story is: I am sad. I am sad all the time and the sadness is so heavy that I can't get away from it. Not ever.”

    Hold Still was both heartbreaking and inspiring and it touched me in a way I can't fully explain. As someone who has and still continues to deal with depression, I found my heart aching for both Ingrid and Caitlin. This story isn't just about depression and suicide. It's about friendship and picking up the pieces after someone so dear to you is gone.

    I adored the writing of the book. The journal entries made the whole story so realistic.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    A deeply moving account of the pain and healing that results from a best friend's suicide. This young adult novel is beautifully written and an excellent study of the stages of grief. LaCour has a remarkable way of allowing the reader to feel the loss of a character who never existed for us, her death precedes the storyline, yet we grieve right along with the characters. This story will resonate with anyone who has experienced loss. An ALA Best Books selection and William C. Morris finalist.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    4.5 Stars

    “The sun stopped shining for me is all. The whole story is: I am sad. I am sad all the time and the sadness is so heavy that I can't get away from it. Not ever.”

    Hold Still was both heartbreaking and inspiring and it touched me in a way I can't fully explain. As someone who has and still continues to deal with depression, I found my heart aching for both Ingrid and Caitlin. This story isn't just about depression and suicide. It's about friendship and picking up the pieces after someone so dear to you is gone.

    I adored the writing of the book. The journal entries made the whole story so realistic.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    This is another book that I picked up a while back and I’m finally getting to it. I like deep emotional stories so I was pretty sure I would like it. That is until, I met the main character.Plot: This is about a girl who is dealing with her best friends sudden suicide. I think anything that happens so fast without any warning is enough to make anyone crazy with grief. Caitlin is caught in the middle between thinking she knew her best friend to maybe she didn’t know her as well as she thought. The plot moves at a steady pace but at times I felt like sometimes it move too slow. I wanted more details on Ingrid suicide. More details of their friendships, etc.Friendship: I think my main problem with this book is that Caitlin didn’t really seem like her own person. She follow Ingrid a lot. It was like once Ingrid was gone Caitlin had no idea who she was anymore. Anything she did, said went all revolved around Ingrid. I get that they are best friends but it nerved me that Caitlin was so…vulnerable. In time, Caitlin does discover who she is but the movement is slow.Suicide: This is just a had subject to even discuss. I never went though this ever in my life so getting a chance to see it and feel through other people is all know. Still, I can not imagine the amount a grief a person goes through dealing with this. So many unanswered questions, so many emotions….This is a good book. I think I would have like it more had I been able to connect with the main character a bit. I just felt like Caitlin was so far off for me to understand. Then again, her whole situations is pretty hard to understand in the first place. Hold Still is good.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A very authentic and emotional story of a girl who wants an explanation for her best friends suicide. More than that she needs to learn how to process grief and how others process their grief. This is definitely a tough story with a tough main character- Ingrid has already killed herself before the novel begins so all of the memories and journal entries Caitlin reads are steeped in sadness. This is not a flaw. The fact that LaCour can so clearly and firmly carry the reader through Caitlin's journey is a testament to her as a writer. Perhaps the novel can only truly be appreciated by those who have suffered the grief of a friend or family member's suicide. Perhaps. But if you're interested in a real accessible sad but ultimately rewarding novel about a girl who has no choice but to move on, pick this up.

    I also highly recommend her second novel, THE DISENCHANTMENTS.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Ingrid and Caitlin are inseparable best friends, but that all changes when Ingrid suddenly commits suicide and Caitlin is left all alone, lost, and completely confused as to why Ingrid killed herself. When Ingrid’s journal is found, Caitlin has the opportunity to try to learn about a side of her best friend that she never really knew. The journal helps Caitlin deal with her pain as she tries to go on through life without her best friend by her side. I really enjoyed this book. It was incredibly sad and depressing, but yet beautifully written. It really made me think about what people may be going through, behind the scenes. The writing style was interesting, as it included many journal entries from Ingrid’s journal, and helped the reader to really become engrossed in the story. Breanne R.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Imagine if your friend died without saying goodbye? The book Hold Still by Nina Lacour tells a beautiful story about two best friend having natural dreams on being photographers. Caitlin,the main character has a best friend named Ingrid that killed herself just when school was going to end. Caitlin was really confused on why her best friend suicide herself. At first Caitlin went into a grief that closed her from the world, she went days and days of depressing moments.At las she went on a research on finding answers on why her friend had done such a thing. On her journey on finding clues she came upon her best friend's bedroom. On the side of the bed stood Ingrid's journal. When she finds Ingrid's journal she begins on understanding why her best friend ended her life. She thought this journal would have brought her answers but instead brought more questions than answers. Although she wasn't expecting to find out what her friend really thought of her, she did end up meeting her first true love. This book is a noval with a theme that relates to the book's name Hold Still. This was the first year Caitlin had ever been without her best friend Ingrid, and was the hardest year for her. At the end Caitlin is strong enough to over come everything Ingrid's journal says and tell her.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    "In the wake of her best friend Ingrid's suicide, Caitlin is left alone, struggling to find hope and answers. When she finds the journal Ingrid left behind for her, she begins a journey of understanding and broadening her horizons that leads her to new friendships and first love."This book is beautifully written. It captures the feelings of pain, loss and regret very well. The use of photography as a way of dealing with pain was interesting. I would recommend this book to most people. However, there are some graphic descriptions that may be triggering to some.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    When Caitlin's best friend, Ingird, commits suicide Caitlin is confusing and hurt. What could Caitlin have done differently to help Ingrid and keep her from ending her life? Caitlin stumbles through life, but after discovering Ingrid's journal she begins to unravel the mystery of her life and death. This book is extremely moving and leads the reader through the incredibly intimate journey through which Caitlin comes to understand her life and Ingrid's life and death. Sprinkled with everyday adolescent situations (liking a boy but not knowing how to go about communicating that to him, making a new friend and then losing her) the characters never veer into cliche and Caitlin's actions are believable and authentic. Caitlin's journey to healing is profound but never heavy-handed or theatric. Truly an outstanding book-would be a wonderful companion read to By the Time Your Read This I'll be Dead by Julie Ann Peters.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This was a powerful story. It kept me up at night .Suicide has such a rippling effect and the survivors stories can be just as devastating. As a parent and teacher I always worry that I'll miss the signs. This books weighs heavy on my heart.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Hold Still is a YA novel about a girl who is dealing with the suicide of her best friend. The protagonist is a senior in high school, and her best friend has just committed suicide. She is wracked with anger, confusion, and guilt—especially since she was so close to the girl. She ends up finding her best friend’s journal under her bed. She is so upset, that it takes her a few days to open it. Then she only reads a little bit at a time, because it is all she can handle. This heartfelt novel is appropriate for high school students. It has some bad language and a few sexual situations. The novel is very realistic, and students (or anyone for that matter) can easily relate to the protagonist. This is an important book to include in a high school library collection, because it deals with the issue of suicide and all the emotional trauma that goes with it. This book illustrates how a suicide can affect family, friends, and acquaintances. This is a book of emotional healing.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    There are no words to do justice to how much of an amazingly gorgeous book Hold Still is. Heartbreakingly beautiful, and almost lyrical, it’s a powerful read that took hold of my heartstrings and never let go.To be honest, there’s nothing special about the plot. Caitlin’s best friend commits suicide and now she’s trying to reel in her grief and figure out why. Before I opened this book, I was thinking “I’ve already this book. Again and again and again,” because it’s kind of common in YA. And if I could kick my own ass, I would. It doesn’t matter if the plot isn’t extravagantly different, Hold Still manages to pull away and distance itself from the rest with its complex characters and gorgeous detail to emotion. Seriously. I just wanted to reach into the pages and give Caitlin a huge bear hug.Something that really added to the story were the hand-written letters and sketches from Ingrid’s journal. If the letters and entries would’ve been typed, the book would’ve lost some its charm. They really helped make the novel come to life.This wasn’t a very articulate review, so forgive me, but like I said, it’s hard to put into words how I felt about this novel. It’s impacting, engaging, gorgeously written, beautifully crafted …I could go on for days. Just take my word and pick this one up! It’s an older release, but the search will be so worth it!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Caitlin is trying to deal with her best friend Ingrid's suicide, and can't help wandering what she missed. Ingrid was a talented photographer, and going back to school Caitlin can't help but be reminded of her dead friend-- especially in photography class. The night she committed suicide, Ingrid left her journal tucked away in Caitlin's room, and Caitlin uses her journal to help her understand what was happening in Ingrid's life that would cause Ingrid to commit suicide-- all the while Caitlin frets over whether she was to blame. Nina LaCour's dramatic YA novel is about surviving, moving on, and growing up. This will appeal to a lot of teen readers, primarily young women.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Heartbreaking and hopeful debut novel by Nina LaCour.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    After her best friend Ingrid commits suicide, Caitlin isn't sure how life can go on. Refusing to go to therapy and feeling alone in the world now, Hold Still follows Caitlin as she begins trudging her way through the world.After finding Ingrid's journal, a tale not only of Ingrid's descent but also something that might just help Caitilin, meeting someone who could be a new friend, and discovering that she can talk to people--that they're also grieving Ingrid's death (maybe not in the same way, but in some way), Caitlin beings to heal.Hold Still is a beautifully written book told using a narrative that follows Caitilin through her struggle to recover and find a new life and with journal entries (sometimes in the form of letters) and drawings from Ingrid. From the very first page I felt a connection to Caitlin and the pain she was in. A part of this might have been that I read this very soon (within a month or so) of a friend of mine dying, but I also believe it was a testament to Nina LaCour's strong talent. My friend did not die from suicide but I was still very much able to understand what Caitlin was going through and her need for a 'why.' I can only imagine that understanding/connection would be even stronger for someone who has lost someone to suicide.That the reader can identify with both Ingrid and Caitlin's pain in Hold Still and understand where both characters are coming from says a lot about what a strongly written book it is--and how painful it can be to read. LaCour's book really shows the lasting pain felt by those that are 'left behind' when someone takes their own life. It's told over the course of about a year so it's not a quick fix, nor does it leave the characters hanging, it truly moves Caitlin through the process of her best friend suddenly dying and also gradually lets the reader know why/how Ingrid was so depressed that she did commit suicide.(I didn't review this sooner because I really wanted to include this quote--it's from pg. 185 so if you want to skip it you can--but I think it's both beautiful and shows Ingrid's depression: '...But now not even the laughing feels good.' I think the quote (and the rest of the sentence/few around it, really encapsulate Ingrid's pain so, so well that you can truly feel it right there. [I had to get the book from the library and then find the quote--and I was a slowpoke.:])It's a book that support/counseling groups should, I believe, consider using because there's not one bit of it that seems to blame anyone for anything. It's not flowery by any means and it's not an after school special but it's real and it's painful and it's true.I sincerely hope Nina LaCour writes another book because this one was gorgeous (and not just aesthetically).10/10
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I was wondering if this book was going to be depressing. It wasn’t. The story begins after Ingrid’s death and while Ingrid plays an integral role in the story, it’s more about Caitlin grieving and coping with the loss of her best friend. I think that Caitlin comes to find that she can be her own person who’s completely different than Ingrid. She can understand Ingrid’s pain without feeling responsible for it. And ultimately, that she deserves happiness out of life. One of my favorite parts was where Caitlin after an encounter with a homeless man on the street considers this: “Instead, I imagine what would happen if everyone turned their regrets into wishes, went around shouting them. Signal lights would change at intersections, and as the people on opposite sides of the street stepped off the curbs, the would call to one another – Finish college! Exercise at least three times a week! Never start smoking! Tell your mother you love her! Wear a condom! Make peace with your brother! Don’t sign anything before you’ve met with a lawyer! Take your dog to the park! Keep in touch with your friends!” It got me to thinking about how cool that would be. Okay, initially embarrassing, but ultimately very cool. This was a great story of healing and a journey of self-discovery, and ultimately the story of caring about someone with mental illness. The cover was pretty and interesting with the drawings on the inside.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Every once in a while, you read a piece of literature that's told in such a unique way that it ceases to be merely a book and is transformed into a piece of art. Hold Still is one of those amazing books. The story isn't just told, but is brought to life by the voice of Caitlin, the narrator, Ingrid's (Caitlin's best friend) diary entries, and also Ingrid's drawings. Hold Still tells the story of how Caitlin tries to recover after her best friend, Ingrid commits suicide. Plagued with guilt, Cailtin tries to pick up the pieces that Ingrid left behind armed with Ingrid's journal. I can try to sum it up as best as I can, but it still wouldn't do the book any justice. The author's words are just so vivid that it feels like you're right there, experiencing the isolation and pain that Caitlin herself is feeling, only you're helpless to stop it (it being a book/work of art and all). I found Caitlin's pain to be extremely real and I was in tears with the way Ingrid's death not only affected her, but affected her parents who felt that when Ingrid died, so did Caitlin. It was also heartbreaking to read Ingrid's journal entries and see how much pain she was in herself. Yet one thing that I loved about this book was that there wasn't anything left to unravel, in regards to Ingrid. She killed herself. There was no clear reason why Ingrid did what she did, besides the fact that she was sad and felt like she had no other way out. Some fiction books that deal with the subject of suicide will plug something in towards the end, so that the readers can have this sort of "A-hah!" moment; the person was abused, the person was rejected. But the way that Nina LaCour wrote it made Hold Still more realistic because more often than not, there is no clear reason why someone kills themselves. Sometimes people are just depressed and there is no hidden meaning to it. You feel what you feel and it's just not logical. This book wasn't so much about suicide as it was about healing; about redemption. It was bittersweet in that while we don't get to see a road of recovery for Ingrid, we get to see Caitlin try to accept this and move on with her life. Hold Still was an uplifting novel that shows that there are a lot of problems that we can overcome and that we shouldn't feel guilty when we do. Armed with beautiful writing and amazing drawings, Nina LaCour has written a book that will make you cry, yes, but won't leave you utterly depressed at the state of the world in the end.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A sad, yet hopeful novel. Caitlin's struggle to get over her friend's death, and find herself in the process, is captivating. I really enjoyed LaCour's use of Ingrid's journal and Caitlin's new romance to help propel the story forward.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Going into this book I wasn't really sure what to expect. I mean, yeah, I'd seen some good things about it here and there, but I hadn't seen anything that made me think that I was starting such a spectacular novel! Hold Still is one of the best books I've read this year. The heart break of the beginning, the hopefulness of the end...it's just beautiful.Caitlin is pretty messed up after her best friend Ingrid commits suicide. She blames herself, she grieves the loss of Ingrid's phenomenal talent, and, most of all, grieves the loss of her best friend. Her other half. The girl that she shared everything with. It really is heartbreaking.Then, little by little she starts to heal. What helps is Ingrid's journal, which she finds under her bed. We get to read it right along with Caitlin, see the drawings and Ingrid's handwriting. It's really cool to be able to see a picture that's referenced in the book.I really liked that Caitlin's new friend Dylan is a lesbian, but who cares? No big deal. There were a lot of things like that in here that made this book just so awesome.The whole book I was rooting for Caitlin, cheering her on as she overcame obstacles and built new relationships. It got to a point where I physically couldn't put it down. I really liked it, and I'm sure that you will too.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    This book is really, really good. I didn't give it five stars because it didn't completely blow my mind the way something like Jellicoe Road did, but it's a quality book. I might have given it four and a half stars if that were an option. One thing I LOVED about this book is that the main character, Caitlin, is a photographer, but she's also a carpenter. How often do you see that in YA books, especially in girls? So many characters are artists or writers, but building things is a rare hobby in YA girls. I loved seeing that represented. This book also has a great lesbian character. The fact that she's gay is just a fact about her. It never becomes a problem or an issue, aside from some teasing by the other kids at the school. Books about GLBTQ issues are certainly necessary and there are some quality ones out there, but books that just have GLBTQ characters in them are equally important. Sometimes I find suicide in YA books boring, because I feel like it's been done to death, no pun intended. But this book, about those left behind in the aftermath of a suicide, is compelling and quietly beautiful. I never felt like any part of it was unrealistic or a stretch to believe. It all just felt natural. Highly recommended.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Caitlin has been lost since her best friend Ingrid committed suicide. Now she has to go back to school after summer and face their classmates, and the one person she thought would help her through, her photography teacher, completely ignores her. When she finds Ingrid's journal, she thinks she might find some answers. As the story unfolds, Caitlin begins to make new friends and form new relationships, and may be able to put Ingrid to reat.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Hold Still focuses on main character Caitlin and her journey through a dark depression over the loss of her best friend Ingrid to suicide. As a reader we only see Ingrid through Caitlin’s memories as she tries to build a new life that doesn’t surround the constant pull of thoughts surrounding Ingrid's death. With the sorrow comes confusion, most of the time while Caitlin is sad she can’t figure out why Ingrid did this, or why she didn’t see it- the guilt she feels over not helping Ingrid is…heartbreaking…..a few months into the death, Caitlin finds one of Ingrid’s old journals stuffed under her bed. As she begins to read Ingrid’s thoughts and see’s what was inside her mind, Caitlin slowly begins to learn the truth of the deep sadness that plagued Ingrid. Caitlin also realizes that she really didn’t know her friend at all and struggles with moving on, because she places so much of the blame on herself. Getting past the guilt Caitlin has so many questions.....Why? Ingrid’s gone, but is ok to still live and be happy? Is it ok to have a new friend, a boyfriend? The journey out of grief is a hard one for Caitlin, and I know many readers out there who won’t read books about suicide because of the sadness, but LaCour brings her book full circle and just at the right times, she pulls the reader out of the pain and has us laughing on swings. Her writing is beautiful and sends powerful messages within its simplicity. Although painful to look into the mind of her dead friend, reading Ingrid’s journal ultimately brings healing to Caitlin’s heart.............( A sad, hopeful beautiful journey..........)
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Caitlin is beginning her junior year in high school - but she's definitely suffering from much more than beginning-of-the-year jitters. Everything is different for Caitlin this year - her best friend Ingrid is no longer there - she committed suicide and now Caitlin is left reeling from the aftershock and trying to come to terms with the loss of her closest friend.Not only is Caitlin suffering emotionally, but everyone around her is also affected by her unexpected death. Ms. Delani, the photography teacher, seems to be giving Caitlin the cold shoulder and being overly critical of her work. The kids at school are walking on eggshells around her. Even her parents are concerned over the way she's acting (she's been spending long periods of time in her car parked out front of her house). Then she finds Ingrid's journal. A journal that Ingrid carried with her at all times of the day and that Caitlin's sure will have all the answers as to why her friend would resort to suicide. Caitlin makes a pact to read one entry a day in the hopes of finding answers... but instead she finds so much more.I've been wanting to read this book for a while now, but I've been holding off because I knew this story was going to have me on an emotional roller coaster. I must admit that I am pretty impressed with the way Ms. LaCour was able to capture Caitlin's grief in a way where she makes it YOUR grief. From the moment you open to its first page until you read it's last sentence, you are on a journey with Caitlin - a journey to find a way of coping and living without someone you love. It's a journey that is heartbreaking, emotional, thoughtful, even painful ... one that will bring tears to your eyes, but will also leave you feeling hopeful and lighthearted. This story is beautifully executed - it captures all aspects of adolesence and brings them into perspective. The characters were captivating. The story was emotional, raw, powerful. It definitely resonated with me and will not be quickly forgotten.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Caitlin Madison is in mourning. Her pretty much only and best friend, Ingrid, committed suicide just before the end of sophomore year. Caitlin can’t grasp that Ingrid is gone. She’s certain that, as a best friend, she should have seen the signs and done something about it. Worst thing is that, somehow, Ingrid slipped her diary under Caitlin’s bed before her final act. Caitlin is afraid to read it, fearing she’ll find the suicide note that Ingrid’s parents never found.Caitlin and her mother spend the summer traveling in Northern California. And then it’s back to school. The first shock is how Ms. Delani, their photography teacher and their favorite teacher, is ignoring Caitlin. Ingrid was a superior photographer and Caitlin felt like a sidekick, but even so, she expected more from Ms. Delani. Caitlin spends a lot of her spare time in the back seat of her car, the one she can’t drive because she never got her license. She spends a lot of time avoiding other students because (a) they were not really her friends and (b) she doesn’t want to talk about Ingrid.But several things happen that she must face. She’s befriended by a new girl at school, Dylan, who rumor has it is a lesbian and was kicked out of her previous school because she got caught kissing a girl. She’s also befriended by Taylor, a boy in the in-crowd. Can these two events bring Caitlin out of her depression?Nina LaCour’s Hold Still is a wonderful book. It is on a par with The Hate List by Jennifer Brown and Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher although it tackles suicide from a different perspective…one girl’s struggle to cope with the emotions resulting from the suicide of a best friend. Caitlin must battle everything: her parents’ concern, the expectations and requirements of a new friendship with Dylan and the fear that it will diminish her friendship with Ingrid, the possibility of a boyfriend, the disappointment of a teacher’s reaction to her. Every character is real. Every emotion is real. Ingrid comes alive (no pun intended) based on Caitlin’s reminiscences. Incorporating photography into the plot enhances the story’s effectiveness. According to my friend Helen, Ms. LaCour, who is her son’s English teacher in California, “…is nice as can be. She's working on a new novel right now.” It’s good to know that a gifted author is nice and that a new novel is in the works. You should read Hold Still. Then read The Hate List and Thirteen Reasons Why.