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    Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening
    Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening
    Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening
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    Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening

    Written by Sophie Morgan

    Narrated by Tatiana Sokolov

    3.5/5

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    About this audiobook

    In Diary of a Submissive, Sophie Morgan candidly explains what exactly an independent, twenty-first century woman gets out of relinquishing her power and personal freedom in a submissive relationship with a dominant man for their mutual sexual pleasure.In the wake of Fifty Shades of Grey, here is a memoir that offers the real story of what it means to be a submissive and follows Sophie's story as she progresses from her early erotic experiences to experimenting with her newly awakened sexuality. From the endorphin rush of her first spanking right through to being collared, she explains in frank and explicit fashion her sexual explorations. But it isn't until she meets James, a real-life Christian Grey, that her sexual boundaries are really pushed. As her relationship with James travels into darker and darker places, the question becomes: Where will it end? Can Sophie reconcile her sexuality with the rest of her life, and is it possible for the perfect man to be perfectly cruel? Daring, controversial, and sensual, Diary of a Submissive possesses a captivating warmth and astounding honesty. Once you listen to this book you will understand why "Sophie Morgan" is a pseudonym.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherTantor Media, Inc
    Release dateApr 29, 2013
    ISBN9781452682396
    Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening

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    • 3/5
      Some interesting explanations on what submissives think and why; but it almost read like every other D/s novel out there. Good plot twist regarding James towards the end there.
    • 5/5
      A very titillating read. One woman's life as a submissive, very detailed. Heavier than your 50 shades of grey, an interesting peak into her life.
    • 3/5
      Just read this as a piece of fantasy erotica. The book is described as a real D/s response to 50 Shades. While its not nearly as bad as all that, it's also not a great example of D/s- primarily because the Doms change the rules of engagement mid scene- this is a big red flag for any new submissive to be aware of.
    • 1/5
      Definitely not my cup of tea. While well written, I got quite tired of reading how much the author enjoyed the abuse, being spanked, licking her partner, being debased and how much it all turned her on. The ending disappointed further but I guess that leaves room for the sequel. Will I read the sequel? Not likely.
    • 4/5
      This is the first time I read a book like that. And I don't mean erotica/kink.

      This has basically been a monologue given by a submissive, and having been written in First person is not easy to read. At some point after a few chapters you forget about that, and are so into her self discovery and the way she builds relationships - the First person thing is a non-issue.

      I'm not sure how to review this book. It's not exactly fiction, not at all, actually, so I wasn't able to put myself in Sophie's shoes or try to imagine how and what she's going through. But I did feel like I wanted to know that she's okay with her journey, and that she's not harmed along the way. So when I hit about 90% of the story, I kind of wanted to bitchslap James. A lot. And maybe cane his dick a little. Ok, a lot.

      Highly recommended for anyone interested in reading into a submissive's mind. It's very telling where the considerations, logic and motives when living this life is concerned. Might enlighten some people.

      Well done, Sophie!
    • 2/5
      Well this book was sure disappointing. My whole reason for wanting to read it was that it was billed as a "memoir" but I kept thinking it sure didn't read like non-fiction, and I come to find out it was PUBLISHED AS FICTION a year previously and apparently nobody cared about it and so they re-published it as non (how are they even allowed to do that??) I wanted to read psychological insight into kink stuff but it turned out to be a mixture of porn, stuff about her job, and relationship drama, and only the first of those was interesting. As porn goes some of it was pretty hot, but I can read plenty of hot porn online without having to wade through all the other dumb stuff. Not at all what I was expecting.
    • 2/5
      I got an ARC of this--obviously the latest in what will probably be an avalanche of 50 Shades of Grey-alikes...
      It's MUCH better written than 50SOG, for sure, and there are actually moments that are kinda hot. However, she is REALLY REALLY into spanking! And, you know, her kink is OK, but it is not my kink.
    • 3/5
      Morgan’s book opens up with a prologue that many of us no doubt have witnessed before. A man and a woman are outside; the man tugs on her hair forcibly and we hear him call her a slut and whore. We look into her eyes and see fury behind them as she restrains herself and the man’s hand tangles tighter into her hair as we, the outsider watch. Immediately our thoughts range from calling for help to intervening, but as Morgan describes the scene, it plays out as that of a D/s (Dominance and submission) relationship. It’s an uncomfortable read as you realize what she describes could be any couple located anywhere, but at the same time she plays it off as part of the lifestyle. We the reader/outsider are left to wonder if the woman is in trouble and as they walk away, one can’t help question if we should have intervened. That scene is disturbing because abuse is not something to take lightly, but as she points out how can we tell what a relationship is? She craves the experience and is sexually aroused by it, while we, the outsider, can’t tell what’s going on. This is how our journey with Morgan beings; a mad, bad, and dangerous journey into the BDSM lifestyle.I sometimes wonder how someone develops a fetish or a particular kink. Morgan doesn’t delve into that, but rather how she came into the lifestyle. She touches upon the normal childhood she had growing up in England; mentions her family was a typical middle class, but received no corporal punishment and was just sent up to her room when she misbehaved. This is important because her first experience involving anything remotely close to a BDSM experience was with an American she met while at university. Ryan turns out to be her first foray into the world of kink. Morgan explains how excited she was to get to know his sexual preferences and how to please him. While she says she had a good imagination, the use of a hairbrush as her first official spanking shocked her. Yes the spanking hurt and was nothing like she had imagined; yet she found the sensation pleasurable to the point of arousing her. She credits Ryan with her “first taste of playing with someone who was a dominant foil to my submissiveness, who didn’t judge me for what turned me on,” and we see how her life is forever changed.What does Morgan teach us about being a submissive and those in the lifestyle? First of all, our misconceptions regarding those into BDSM are challenged. She shows us this through the introduction of three distinct men in her life. These men are different from each other in looks and in their choice of career. All three show her what she wants in a relationship and how much of a submissive she is. Morgan calls herself a feminist several times and yet she calls certain behaviors demeaning to her. I found these sections to be contradictory to her nature. Wouldn’t a feminist put a stop to these behaviors? Or is she using the excuse of pleasure her significant other clearly gets as way to justify the demeaning behavior? Is she hiding behind the mask of arousal to justify his behavior? Yes her limits are pushed and it’s clear that we as readers begin to separate exactly what we wouldn’t find acceptable in the bedroom, yet we have to remind ourselves this is her story and her life. While we may not agree with the behavior (yes I found it to be contradictory to her descriptions), she fully explains it’s her choice. She reminds us about this when she’s talking to one of three men, James. James is trying to come to terms with a sexual encounter between the two of them and she says, “Yes, you hurt me. But you do it with my permission. I beg you to do it, literally sometimes. Hurting me isn’t a bad thing in this context. The fact that you’re you – kind, intelligent, polite, lovely James – is what makes me feel confident and safe enough for you to do that. I wouldn’t give any old person that power over me. I give it to you. In fact, I’ve never given any other person the level of power over me that I’ve given you, not even Thomas. And I give you this power because of the vanilla you. If you were as merciless and harsh all the time as you are when you’re choking me then I wouldn’t want to play with you.” Suddenly it all makes sense. The level of trust she gives to another and giving up control is what she wants. She shows us that she’s educated, holds down a hectic job, and just like everyone else suffers from the same angst. There’s nothing deviant about her because she likes to be a submissive. Sure there are scenes that are hard to stomach, but then they just serve as a reminder what my hard limits would be and honestly, I’d be calling out my safe word.While reading Diary of a Submissive, I agreed with a lot of what Morgan said. To the point I began to question myself and wondered if perhaps I’m secretly one of them. When I began to talk to others about this book I breathed a heavy sigh of relief with others indicated they agreed with Morgan. I’m not saying being into the lifestyle is bad or something to be ashamed about. What I admire Morgan for is putting it out there. A lot of women and men have read that other book, yes, Fifty Shades of Grey. A lot of Fifty fans are being recommended Morgan’s book as a “Fifty fix” because it’s “real life BDSM,” and alas I believe that’s a wrong approach. EL James herself has stated that the BDSM in her books is background, so in many ways filler and the heart of her novels is Ana and Grey’s relationship and not the fact he’s into BDSM. So when Fifty fans are given this to read to fill the Fifty void I cringe; I cringe mostly because they come into a pretense believing Morgan’s book will give them that love story that captured their hearts. You don’t get that with Morgan. What you get is a realistic glimpse of a BDSM lifestyle and what it’s like for her. Not everyone in the lifestyle will share similar experiences. I think it’s important to keep that in mind when reading other BDSM books in the genre. Not everything Morgan describes may sit well with a reader and again I remind you that Morgan’s book is her life and lifestyle which is varies greatly from a series in fiction as well as real life. Ana and Grey have nothing on Morgan. In October, I had the opportunity to ask Morgan a question via Twitter. I asked her what she what thought of people recommending her book to Fifty fans and if it’s healthy for women to read about BDSM in fiction or does she worry about the misconceptions. Her response was “We just need to differentiate between d/s and abuse. It’s a grey area (no pun intended) but important, obviously.” ETA: I always research a new author before I begin a book as a way to familiarize myself with their writing style and to compile a background portfolio on them (just so I know what may or may not influence their writing). I broke this personal rule before reading Diary. I did the research after and I as an academic, feel I need to report my findings.In 2010, Kate Marley published a book, Subtext, and there’s some confusion whether or not it was fiction or nonfiction. Sometime between 2010 and this year, Subtext was rewritten, acquired a new publisher, and published as Diary of a Submissive. Research suggests both books are identical with parts of Diary expanded and names changed. When the opportunity came to interview Sophie, I jumped at the chance to seek clarification. Sadly, the question was not answered. I admit, I personally struggled with the rating because of that unanswered question. My immediate reaction to was to bring it down, but in the end I decided to keep it and while some do believe Diary is fiction (based on Subtext), I’ll leave that up to you to decide.
    • 5/5
      OMG! Talk about erotic! Extremely well written and very descriptive!You have to read this one. I found Fifty Shades of Grey boring and could not get past the first few chapters, this one I could not put down! You need to read this one, highly recommend to all. I received this from Goodreads for an honest review and all I can say is great job Sophie! Job well done!
    • 3/5
      If you are feeling a little daring and want to read something that will seriously make you blush, this book is something you might enjoy. I felt a little dirty reading it; Morgan goes into great detail about her experiences, what she likes, what she has done, and how she felt the entire time while doing it. I blushed a lot; there are some parts that are pretty steamy. And, I learned a lot about a world that is Morgan’s passion…being a submissive.There were also parts that really did put me on edge. The encounters Morgan describes are very graphic and may or may not be for some readers. This maybe the kind of book that some people can pick up and only get through half of it before they decide that it is just not for them. Morgan basically takes you a walk through her childhood, to her first sexual encounter and then down to the nitty-gritty. Just a warning: if you read the synopsis and think that this book may not be fore you, then it probably isn’t.~BookWhisperer Reviwer MC~