It hurts knowing you don't tell me anything anymore.

I've never hated drifting from someone as much as I hate drifting from you. I miss you. And knowing that there's nothing I can do for you anymore hurts the most.

The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned. William Somerset I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. Thomas Paine

Can blind people see their dreams? It would be so beautiful if they could
I think the weirdest feeling in the world is when you look at your reflection in a mirror and you look for a long time and just think about yourself. You start to doubt that you're really yourself.
1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. Health: Drink plenty of water. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants. Live with the 3 Es - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy Play more games. Read more books than you did in 2010. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Sleep for 7 hours. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality: 1. Dont compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 2. Dont have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment. 3. Dont over do. Keep your limits. 4. Dont take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

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Dont waste your precious energy on gossip. Dream more while you are awake. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. Forget issues of the past. Dont remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Dont hate others. Make peace with your past so it wont spoil the present. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime. Smile and laugh more. You dont have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. Society: Call your family often. Each day give something good to others. Forgive everyone for everything. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6. Try to make at least three people smile each day. What other people think of you is none of your business. Your job wont take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

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Life: 1. Do the right thing! 2. Get rid of anything that isnt useful, beautiful or joyful. 3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 4. The best is yet to come. 5. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

My only relief is to sleep. When Im sleeping, Im not sad, Im not angry, Im not lonely, Im nothing. Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point Things are because we see them, and what we see, and how we see it, depends on the arts that influenced us. To look at a thing is very different from seeing a thing. One does not see anything until one sees its beauty. Then, and then only, does it comes into existence. Oscar Wilde The sad thing about life is that dreams are usually so cookie-cutter perfect, that people just settle for the closest things to them. They dont believe in the existence and sheer possibilities of their own desires. Runaway by Trina Dela Rama

One of the oddest things about being grown-up was looking back at something you thought you knew and finding out the truth of it was completely different from what you had always believed. Mercedes Thompson from Bone Crossed by Patricia Briggs (via jessy37) I dont hate you, I feel sorry for you. Youll always have a hole in your heart because you dont really care about anybody and I have a horrible feeling that no one will ever really care about you. Bree Hodge, Desperate Housewives 6x23: I Guess This is Goodbye(Source) Learning sleeps and snores in libraries, but wisdom is everywhere, wide awake, on tiptoe. Josh Billings Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself. Leo Tolstoy (via somebodysblues)

Im fairly shy really, I read lots of books and I have a cat. I like to ride my bike. I like pretty nice, simple things. I like to learn and Im pretty passionate about learning a lot of new things and making sure my brain feels really full and satisfied. Emily Browning (via em-browning) Anyway, no drug, not even alcohol, causes the fundamental ills of society. If were looking for the source of our troubles, we shouldnt test people for drugs, we should test them for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power. Unknown I never kept up with the fashions. I believed in wearing what I thought looked good on me. Bettie Page (via scarlettstilettogirl)

Life sucks - in a good way. Falling in love, falling in hate, getting laid, getting hurt - whats one without the other? When it comes to the ritual of growing up, sometimes you smile because youre happy. Other times, you smile just because youve survived. But hey, a smile is a smile. Donald, Happy Campers. (via crystalsavestheday) We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give. Winston Churchill (via filanegaa) Speak when you are angryand you will make the best speech youll ever regret. Laurence J. Peter (via dreamingofbliss) Only a foolish optimist can deny the dark realities of the moment. Franklin Delano Roosevelt (via squishycool) If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever? Casper (via anticipationandahalf)

I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought, there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, its true Im here, and Im just as strange as you. Frida Kahlo Good books dont give up all their secrets at once. Stephen King (via psitssarahh) I know it hurts. But its life, and its real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but its life, and its pretty much all we got. Garden State (2004)

Whatever you are, be a good one. Abraham Lincoln (submitted by atwila) Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do. Dr. Benjamin Spock (via kari-shma) So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe well never know most of them. But even if we dont have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. Charlie, The Perks of Being a Wallflower | Submitted by:thankyoufordancing Courage doesnt always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, I will try again tomorrow. Mary Anne Radmacher (via kari-shma) Tough times never last, but tough people do. Robert H. Schuller (Submitted by camiwiseman) Sacrifice is a part of life. Its supposed to be. Its not something to regret. Its something to aspire to. The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom (viapleasedontgo) Is anyone dressed up like an eel? Anyone? This next song is dedicated to that person who decided to dress up like an eel. Andrew Vanwyngarden, Voodoo Fest Music Festival Do you realize (uuuuhhhh) that you have the most wonderful shoes. Andrew VanWyngarden, singing The Flaming Lips - Do you realize? Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.

Harriet Tubman (via somebodysblues)

Maybe youre reason why all the doors are closed So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road Katy Perry - Firework (via radonnoble) I often talk aloud to myself. I find it extraordinarily useful. Albus Dumbledore (via inkedimagination) What they teach you in school doesnt prepare you for life. Textbooks dont compare to living in the real world. Rock and roll teaches you how to live. Joey Ramone (via stupidmansuit) Thats what Im afraid of. Not being enough. Not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. Brooke Davis, One Tree Hill Ill tell you the greatest regret of my life: I let my love go. Magnolia (1999) Im sick of just liking people. I wish to God I could meet somebody I could respect. Franny and Zooey, J.D. Salinger I dont exactly know what I mean by that, but I mean it. The Catcher in the Rye, J.D. Salinger (via jacvanek) Love is when the other persons happiness is more important than your own. H. Jackson Brown, Jr. (via kingfish76) there are two types of people in the world: those who prefer to be sad among others, and those who prefer to be sad alone. Nicole Krauss (The History of Love)

And just like that I was thrown back into my old pattern: greasy chinese, sleeping til noon, and feeling. restless. Carrie Bradshaw (via yourstrulylp) There is more treasure in books than in all the pirates loot on Treasure Island. Walt Disney (via libraryland) The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing. Walt Disney (via kari-shma) Love doesnt make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. Franklin P. Jones | ashlynnemarie In a society that tries to standardize thinking, individuality is not highly prized. Alex Grey (via foxxworthy) I wake up around noon, light a cigarette, get a cup of coffee, sit in the bathtub for an hour and daydream, and I usually come up with some ideas Its a very irresponsible life. The only decisions I make are about the notes Im writing. Hans Zimmer Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting. Peter Pan Were kind of softies. We love everyone and everything actually and we want everyone else to love everything too. Andrew VanWyngarden (via lofichick) A person of good intelligence and of sensitivity cannot exist in this society very long without having some anger about the inequality - and its not just a

bleeding-heart, knee-jerk, liberal kind of a thing - it is just a normal human reaction to a nonsensical set of values where we have cinnamon flavoured dental floss and there are people sleeping in the street. George Carlin Actually, I think friendship and love are exactly the same thing. Truman Capote There are certain emotions in your body that not even your best friend can sympathize with, but you will find the right film or the right book, and it will understand you. Bjrk Why do you want to die? Why dont you want to exist? If you dont want to participate, my darling, if you dont want to be part of the happy anxious societies, then turn. Dont wish to disappear, wish to find something satiating, even if its destruction and malcontent. Because I love you so, my darling, and would rather see you evil than dead. Jhang Moon-Jin There is only you and your camera. The limitations in your photography are in yourself, for what we see is what we are. Ernst Haas You dont need to give reasons for the things you do - you just have to do what you want. And sometimes the thing that seems messed up to everyone else is whats right for you. You have to do it and not be ashamed for it. Kristen Stewart You can transmute love, muddle it, ignore itbut you can never pull it out of you E. M. Forster I dont want to be married just to be married. I cant think of anything lonelier than spending the rest of my life with someone I cant talk to, or worse, someone I cant be silent with.

 Mary Ann Shaffer It seems to me the only thing that matters, the only thing thats even real, is the here and now. And some stuff is important and some stuff isnt, and I guess time is the only thing that can sort out which is which. That just means, the more we live in the present, the more we store up all the memories, good and bad, the more we have to hold onto once people, places, and things are gone. Because believe me, I speak from experience when I say things can change forever with, like, no warning. So no matter how much you love something or no matter how much you take it for granted, nothing lasts forever. So for now, all we can do is hang on and wait and see and hopefor the future. Claudia Salinger: Party Of Five Robert: You know all those teenagers that..all the different types of teenagers in your school that didnt really have mates, for whatever reason? Thats what we all are & were all in one group. Because eventually you know, all the unpopular kids will bandy together & take over the world. Thats what Misfits is.

I dont want to be your friend I just want to be your lover No matter how it ends No matter how it starts House of Cards, Radiohead

THE BREAKFAST CLUB (1985) Were all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it, thats all. Andrew Clark (Emilio Estevez) HEATHERS (1989) If you were happy every day of your life you wouldnt be a human being. Youd be a game-show host. - Veronica Sawyer (Winona Ryder) 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (1999) Just because youre beautiful doesnt mean you can treat people like they dont matter. - Cameron James (Joseph Gordon-Levitt)

MEAN GIRLS (2004) Calling somebody else fat wont make you any skinnier. Calling someone stupid doesnt make you any smarter All you can do in life is try to solve the problem in front of you. - Cady Heron (Lindsay Lohan) FERRIS BUELLERS DAY OFF (1986) Life moves pretty fast. You dont stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. - Ferris Bueller (Matthew Broderick) I dont love studying. I hate studying. I like learning. Learning is beautiful. Natalie Portman Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not. Ralph Waldo Emerson Dont be afraid of failure; be afraid of petty success. Maude Adams

Beautiful music with lyrics about the truth of how things can be not great is a powerful thing. It made me feel like, if I put my mind to it, I could make myself happy. Like I had some help. I hate music where its like, It all sucks, fuck this, were gonna die, fuck you, kill yourself, and I hate shit where its, Its gonna be alright, everything is just fine. The most powerful aspect of music is that it can open your eyes to the frustration of everything and give you the adrenaline and faith to go on with the ideal that you can make it better if you do your thing Julian Casablancas A lot of things are coded because lyrically I am never comfortable to discuss something straight up, so I mask it and try to hide it a little. Andrew VanWyngarden You can stay up all night and still not count all the ways to lose the people you love. My Sisters Keeper

I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesnt deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen and you are washing a glass in the sink and it breaks-accidentally-and punctures your skin. And then there is this shocking red, the brightest thing in the day, so vibrant it buzzes, this blood of yours. That is okay sometimes because at least you know youre alive. Augusten Burroughs

"If you are racist, sexist, homophobic or just basically an asshole, I don't care if you like me or not. I fucking hate you." - Kurt Cobain.
We read to know that we are not alone. C.S. Lewis You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. Youre on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one wholl decide where to go Dr. Seuss You know the song Time to Pretend, well originally the song was called Time to Pretend Were Not Gay but the record label didnt really go for that. Andrew VanWyngarden on bringing in real life experiences to their music. Its just that, I know how youre unhappy a lot. And, maybe it doesnt help anything, but I wanted you to know that Im always here. I wont ever let you down, I promise that you can always count on. Wow, that does sound corny. But you know that, right? That I would never, ever hurt you? Jacob Black to Bella (New Moon p.218)

my summer breeze my perfect boy my everything my life my love my oxygen my heart my soul my winter sun my spring time my body my core my world my imagination my dream my sky my rain my mind my favorite position my happiness my best I ever had, my man my boy my guy my arms to hold my shoulder to lean on my body to hug my lap to lay on my time my precious my beloved my prince my idol my husband my cookie my candy my sweater my vitamin my blanket my cover

my shield my hero my immortal my flame my light my days my nights my destiny my shining star my mind my future my one my two my three my. my heart my soulja boy my only one my own I LOVE YOU DEAR Everybody finished the song at different times. At last, only the Weasley twins were left singing along to a very slow funeral march. Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone
You deserve more than this, am beyond sorry if my words can not express ENOUGH how much I love you and how much you mean to me in my life:

For feeling the whole time I was the one who was wrong. For feeling the need to apologize everybody because again I felt I shouldn't be the way I am. For all the immature bullies who all they kept showing was hate and kept chasing me at nights on my nightmares. For all the times I have been made fun of. For all the walks alone while the rest was having fun. For all my observations of a cruel society or group of people.

 For the huge Guilt for the never ending suicidal thoughts when my ILL MIND thought that was my one and only hope to make myself have a rest: let god take my own life. For my family's huge expectations and the stress and pressure because of it For all the nicknames, the stares and the weird looks people kept giving me. For the uncertainty: for not knowing where my life was going. For being freakin scared of everybody and my future FOR WANTING TO SCREAM: ALL I NEED IS FREEDOM AND PEACE, JUST A REST FROM SO MUCH PAIN AND SUFFERING. I WANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD, I WANT TO BE H-A-P-P-Y All I thought is that I already had enough when I really had no idea the worse was yet to come. For loosing myself, for feeling dead inside of me, mental illness taking over my life. For hiding from the world just to not be done damage. For my times alone by myself reflecting on how hard life is with my throat hiding its pain wanting to cry out loud. For my fear of letting go. For the fear of being made done impressions of who I am. For getting used to be being bullied EVERYDAY, and being freakin misunderstood by the world. For finding my family another enemy when perhaps they didnt mean it that way. For all the sadness and pain just because of being myself. For words that hurt me deeply emotionally and psychologically. For my mental pain and confusion because of that. For always trying to keep the faith even though things did not seem to get better. For being left alone For all the disappointments in myself or for being scared of maybe disappointing myself. For all the dissapointments in other people who I considered friends who left me alone. For not being able to find the light, the happiness, not being able to recognize good things, for being unable to recognize my achievements and success.

 For not being able to even talk, defend myself, stand up for myself in front of horrible moments of humiliation and backstabbing. For the never-ending trials in trying to be respected or even heard. For not knowing when would the living hell was going to end. For not being able to understand how things happened so quickly For everything I had to overcome. For every tear full of pain.

I thank you

Ive never thought about where I wanted to go in life in general, let alone to be so aware of what complete strangers think of our art. Im not sure where I want to go. I just try to be sincere. Alice Glass (spin.com email interview)

My self esteem is so fucked up I don't even know how to accept a compliment anymore. I can't even think they're serious, I automatically think they're making fun of me.

You wonder why I'm insecure? Because there are girls out there who look gorgeous without even trying. When they wake up they look like angels. When I wake up, I look like I just got out of a war. Those photogenic girls who look good in every photo. When someone takes a photo of me, my face looks half retarded. They dont even need to dress nicely and theyll still look good. How they can capture your

attention just by walking past. I want to be able to do that.

By then I knew that everything good and bad left an emptiness when it stopped. Ernest Hemingway David Bowie: Don't you love the Oxford Dictionary? When I first read it, I thought it was a really really long poem about everything. Only the very weak-minded refuse to be influenced by literature and poetry. Cassandra Clare when someone likes me, i dont like them when i like someone, they dont like me see this is why i hate life We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. Its a death trap. Anthony Hopkins We come spinning out of nothingness, scattering stars like dust. Rumi To love to read is to exchange hours of ennui for hours of delight. Montesquieu And all my days are trances, And all my nightly dreams Are where thy grey eye glances, And where thy footstep gleams In what ethereal dances, By what eternal streams. Edgar Allan Poe Every day is a battle I face Strange life I live but its what you decided I give it all into your hands, do what you will with me

And Ill, I smile when you speak Remember those times I was hoping for something? Foster the People - I would do anything for you

So, now I shall talk every night. To myself. To the moon I talk to myself and look at the dark trees, blessedly neutral. Sylvia Plath Lose your dreams and you might lose your mind. Mick Jagger

I'm kinda cute if you look at me with your eyes closed.

In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous. Aristotle Ive learned to lose Ive learned to win. Ive turned my face against the wind. I will move fast I will move slow, take me where I have to go Mt Eden - Still Alive [As a child] I lived for books, and was sustained by literary characters with whom I could identify I was your basic, common-or-garden bookworm, complete with freckles and National Health spectacles. J.K. Rowling

When its a big day tomorrow but you cant fall asleep because youre too nervous/excited and your brain doesnt shut up. Youre just lying there, different versions of imaginary scenarios are playing over and keeping your mind active.

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. Harriet Tubman
Logic will get you from A to Z; imagination will get you everywhere. Albert Einstein

It's sad when people you know become people you knew and how you used to be able to talk to them and now you can barely look at them.
I would rather be poor in a cottage full of books than a king without the desire to read. Thomas Babington Macaulay Literature adds to reality, it does not simply describe it. It enriches the necessary competencies that daily life requires and provides; and in this respect, it irrigates the deserts that our lives have already become. C.S. Lewi To me, the explanation of life seems to be its melody, its pattern. And I feel in life such an infinite, truly inconceivable fantasy. Karen Blixen
I finally understood what true love meantlove meant that you care for another persons happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be. Nicholas Sparks For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others. Audrey Hepburn Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. Mahatma Gandhi

Reading is that fruitful miracle of a communication in the midst of solitude. Marcel Proust Promise me youll wait for me Cause Ill be saving all my love for you And I will be home soon. Promise Me by Lea Salonga When I was younger, I could remember anything, whether it had happened or not; but my faculties are decaying now and soon I shall be so I cannot remember any but the things that never happened. It is sad to go to pieces like this, but we all have to do it. Mark Twain
Live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild air Ralph Waldo Emmerson

I never told you Id love you all my life. Oh my love, you never swore to adore me all your life. We never made promises like that, knowing me knowing you. We never thought we ever would be caught by love fickle as we were. And yet, and yet, step by step, without a word between us, bit by bit, feelings slipped between our merry mingle bodies and words of love rose to our naked lips. Bit by bit lots of words of love began to mingle gently with our kisses. How many words of love? I never would have thought Id always want you. Oh my love, we never would have thought we two could live together and not get bored. Wake up every morning and be just as surprised to be just as happy in the same bed, desire nothing more than that oh so banal pleasure of feeling so good to be together. And yet, and yet, step by step without a word between us, bit by bit our feelings bound us tight in spite of ourselves, bound us tight forever Feelings stronger than any words of love known or unknown. Feelings so wild and so strong. Feelings we never thought were possible before. Dont ever promise to adore me all your life. Lets not make promises like that knowing me knowing you. Lets keep the feeling that this love of ours, this love of ours, will be short and sweet. Marianne in Pierrot le fou (1965)
I dont wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. Michael Jackson Obviously theres something very seductive about movies, which can be attractive in a bad way if youre doing them for the wrong reasons for money, or for fame. I hope I wont ever do that. I dont feel at home in

LA, I feel like Im on holiday. Its nice to dip your feet in occasionally, but I think its probably quite unhealthy to spend too much time there at once. Andrew Garfield Cute is when your personality shines through your looks. Like, when you see someones personality in the way they walk and you just feel like hugging them every time you see them. Natalie Portman Sometimes I dont feel very social and I just go to sleep. Ezra Koenig When I wake up in the morning, I feel just like any other insecure 24year-old girl. Then I say, Bitch, youre Lady Gaga, you get up and walk the walk today. Great quote by Lady Gaga We may come from different places, and speak in different tongues, our hearts beat as one. Albus Dumbledore, Goblet of Fire

If I had one day with you, I'd make sure I woke up next to you, to hold you while you sleep and softly kiss you on your cheek. Then I'd sing quietly to you so you'd fall inevitably in love with me, so that you won't ever go. If I had one day with you, I'd spend it trying to please you. I'd make you the happiest person alive and I would hold your hand all the while. I'd spend all day just staring at you, because nothing else in the world would interest me more. Maybe when we kissed, I would try to slow down time for just a little bit. Then when that

day ends, I would hug you close and say goodbye and when you leave, I'll keep waiting at the border until we meet again someday.
I dont know, I dont want to talk as much. Its nicer to think dear, pretty thoughts and keep them in ones heart, like treasures. I dont like to have them laughed at or wondered over. Anne of Green Gables She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And thats importantyou know. Marilyn Monroe
Andrew: I hated school. I hated school, and I didnt realize why. I thought I was - there was something wrong with me for hating school and not being able to deal with school. At the time, it was ingrained in me that school was - if youre not successful at school, youre not going to be successful at life. And the hierarchy with subjects at school, the arts are given no credence and if they are, its false credence. So yeah, I look back on it and I get angry. I am angry about it because you know, there might be a brilliant ballerina somewhere in school thats being forced to do maths and shes seen as difficult. But if she was just allowed to express whatever gifts she has to offer, then she would be happy and she could make hundreds of other people joyous for a couple of hours per night.

You have to put up with the risk of being misunderstood if you are going to try to communicate. You have to put up with people projecting their own ideas, attitudes, misunderstanding you. But its worth being a public fool if thats all you can be in order to communicate yourself. Edie Sedgwick

I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited. Slyvia Plath If there is no love in the world, we will make a new world, and we will give it walls, and we will furnish it with soft, red interiors, from the inside out, and give it a knocker that resonates like a diamond falling to a jewellers felt so that we should never hear it. Love me, because love doesnt exist, and I have tried everything that does. Jonathan Safran Foe