REFLECTION OF LEARNIING SUPPORT Times flies fast, its already the third semester in IPG KBA.

Now its already October. Soon, I will be sitting for my final examination. Nervous, scared and all other feeling mix and become one. I never imagined myself being here, in IPG KBA. I remember the day that I received the news about my admission into IPG KBA. I was very happy then. I thought I would not make it through but Alhamdulillah, Allah answer my prayer. Then, I sat alone, rethink and asked questions to myself, Is this what I want? Is this what I want to be?. At that moment, I doubted my decision. Half of me want to go and half of me do not want to. My family step in and tell me to take this course. They are my biggest supporters. So, here I am, in IPG KBA, study TESL. 20th June 2011, was day I step into IPG KBA. With all hope and dream, I will make it become true. After the rough orientation, I have been exposed to new environment in IPG KBA. I met and make new friends. I also have been exposed to new subject in this course. As I am taking TESL course, I have to make sure that I have a strong foundation in English before moving on to degree. The major subjects that I have to take for three semesters are Social Studies, Language Description, Language Development and English Studies. Frankly, I am not a good in English and my foundation is not so strong. I am afraid that I will fail and disappoint my parents. I use to think to go out from this course and do the course that I want. I am not afraid to fail but I afraid to disappoint my parents. However, I never spoke to them because I know them definitely against me. So, I decided to stay here and take this course. I knew that I am not good in English and my foundation is not as strong as everybody else. So, I have to buck up, learn what I have missed and try to excel. Besides that, I need to have a strong foundation in English before further my studies in degree. Through all this three semester, I felt my English has improved bit by bit. I can give myself an average or in the middle compared to my other friends. However, I do know that my English was not strong but I make an improvement and progression compared to the first day I am here. The teaching method used in class also helps me in improving my English. The presentation, public speaking and discussion are the factors that help me in improving my English and also my self-confidence level. Besides that, through the assignments I have made an improvement in this subject

because I need to think critically in doing it. Mostly the assignments given by the lecturers required our high order thinking skills. Through this, I have developed my thinking skills. Being in this course also requires me to think outside the box especially in English Studies and Social Studies. However, I felt I am not thinking critically or think outside of the box. I tried to look something in different perspective but I never reached the lecturers expectations. Sometimes I think I am confidence with my work but when I look at others, I am so far away to reach the A students. Furthermore, it does not bring my momentum down. After being here in three semesters, I discovered that I weak in grammar. It is because my before I came here my grammar was not strong. I found that I am not good in word class. Sometimes I found it hard to differentiate it. I know that word class is important and I should have a strong foundation in it. Besides that, my vocabulary is not wide enough. I tend to use the same word. It is because I did not read enough books. If I have read more books, I will be exposed to new words and will expand my vocabulary. Moreover, I also knew that I am not good in English Studies especially in poem. A poem has very depth meaning in it. Sometimes I failed to dig out what is the poem all about. I felt frustrated. It is because in poem I have to see the message beyond it. Every time I look at it and read it over and over again I will not discovered the true message convey in the poem. I failed to analyse and interpret the message in it. Sometimes I ask myself why I cannot think like others. Why I am not look in others perspective? Sometimes I do jealous of my friends. When we are having a discussion in class my answer is different from the lecturers. These are all my weaknesses. I still find ways to overcome these weaknesses. I maybe lack here and there but in time me still improving myself. One year and a half in IPG KBA, I have collected sweet and bitter moments here. Some of bitter moments that I can recall until this day is when I almost failed my grammar quiz in semester one. My mark was in borderline. That moment made me realised that I have to do something to improve myself. Maybe I was taking things for granted. I am taking things lightly or maybe I am thinking I am good enough. That incident has made my mood and momentum down a bit. Soon, I rise again and made redemption through my assignment. I was so happy and Im glad I did better in it. Sometimes I felt that my mind was not in class. I do not know what I am studying. I felt distracted for moments. Luckily, I back on track. Thank God I was

not in that mood for long. Things that I have problem is within me. I have a serious problem on my attitude. Day by day I become lazier. I hate it. I want to be my old self back who doesnt procrastinate. I am afraid that this attitude will bring me down. This attitude also had made me become indiscipline. I dont do my work and use to do things last minute. Sometimes I hate myself for being like this. However, only I can change it because in this problem I am the trouble one. In order to overcome my weaknesses, I have done some exercises to improve my English especially in grammar. Also, I do seek for my friends who are better than me. They all are helping me to overcome my weaknesses. They are good friends indeed. Besides that, in order to wider my knowledge I have purchase newspaper and magazines. However, IPG KBA does not have purchase newspaper so made things harder. I need to go out to find a bookstore. I need to go through a hardship before I can excel. Lastly, there are many things happening when I am in IPG KBA. There are things that I have improved and have not. These three semesters has taught me many things in studies and in life. As a student and teacher-to-be I hope things that I learned here, I will apply it in schools later. I hope that my friends and I will excel and be a great teacher in future.

KAMPUS BAHASA ANTARABANGSA, KUALA LUMPUR

PPISMP TESL JUNE 2011 INTAKE SEMESTER 3

LEARNING SUPPORT
LS1352K

NAME I/C NUMBER CLASS/GROUP LECTURER SUBMISSION DATE

: : :

SAIFUL AMIR BIN AB AZIZ 920712-03-5239 TESL 3.2

: MADAM RUZIAH BINTI MD.ZAIN : 10th OCTOBER 2012