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2015 Quiet Lightning
artwork Maria Guzman Capron
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Prayer for My New Daughter by Rebecca Foust
first published in North American Review
Sufferance by Rebecca Foust first published in Bellingham Review
Sweet Sixteen by Jill Kolongowksi
first published in Pentimento Journal
Missed Connections by Alexander Peterson
first appeared at The Rumpus
Rabbit and the Professor by Jon Sindell
first published in Thrice Fiction
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CONTENTS
curated by
NAYOMI MUNAWEERA
from Island of a
Thousand Mirrors
Sweet Sixteen
11
13
PABLO BAEZA
Yom Kippur
17
SHIDEH ETAAT
French Fries
21
PETER BULLEN
The Reading
29
SUZANNAH WEISS
35
ALEXANDER PETERSON
Missed Connections
37
JON SINDELL
39
SUZANNAH WEISS
43
47
ARI MOSKOWITZ
51
RACHEL BUBLITZ
53
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HTNING IS SPONSORED
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BY
QUIET LIGHTNING
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- SET 1 -
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P R AY E R F O R M Y
N E W DAU G HTE R
with lines by Audre Lorde and William Butler Yeats
SUFFERANCE
1,123 reported killings of trans people worldwide
within the last five years examiner.com
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MIR R O RS
fr o m I S L
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M A N IF EST O
I make the mistake of watching Elliot Rodgers
manifesto video. I watch on my phone in bed while
the gray early morning California sun slices through
the blinds. In the video the sun is hot yellow on
Rodgers face. He says if he cant have any girls, hell
take great pleasure in annihilating us all. He tells us
we deserve it. He laughs a little. But worst of all, he
looks so fucking normal. He looks like a kid I had a
crush on in elementary school. My body turns solid,
locks itself up, the way I felt once when I grabbed
a live electric fence. I get so afraid I cant leave the
house for days.
After four days at home being afraid I decide the fear
is becoming its own kind of lockup. I put on a pink
sundress and put a book in my bag. As soon as I get
out the door I realize its not as hot as it looks and my
dress is all wrong. Im very aware of my bare legs, how
naked they look from the ankle to the knee.
Normally I notice things like the new yellow roses
blooming behind the library, but today I notice the
men. How many there are. For every man with his
hands in his pockets I look for a gun. I keep trying
11
12
SWEET SIXTEEN
We ran down the covered outdoor hallways in our
bare feet, the concrete floors cold and dirty at the
Best Western where Brooke wanted to have her
sixteenth birthday party. The hotel sat next to the
main intersection in town, across the street from a
decrepit strip mall with five stores which were always
changing and a gas station that never did; the Farmer
Jack grocery store across the street where everyone
would later work; an empty, marshy lot kitty-corner
with faded signs for failed local politicians, weeds
taller than I was, and a realtor signno one ever
quite brave enough to put their money on this small
town.
For now most of us were only fifteen. We were alone
in the hotel. Brookes dad was supposed to come
check on us and that was enough for me to be able
to truthfully tell my mom we had adult supervision,
though something in my chest felt all knotted up, the
way it always does when I lie. We pounded down the
hallway, our small heels going bang and I wasnt quite
sure why we were running but it felt scary and good
to be out, alone in the dark.
Brooke stopped and knocked on a seemingly random
Ji ll Kolongowski
13
15
16
PPPP
PPPPPPP
Y O M KI P P U R
the men I have loved
became women, the women
in my life who
grew autumnal
from starkly invisible,
held this wondrous being human
like a set of floating stones,
a snowy, meadowed silence,
lingering on
women, the women Ive loved sorry for the sorting in groupings,
the projections, wanting, staying
too late, leaving too early,
the remains of wrong silences
like asphalt on the tongue, the
still fury of other men, their violences,
my violences, quiet longing, running
from my selves, an unforgiving winter,
men, of which I could be construed
a part of, apart from, winter
bathes the body, hollow cold,
apocryphal, distant, unknowable.
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and recognize
the stars
which look upon us
expectant
with kindness
Pablo Ba e za
19
SSSS
SSSSSSSS
F RE N C H F RIE S
In a few months Ill graduate from high school still
a virgin, not even a kiss to show for myself which
wouldnt be such a colossal tragedy if I was ugly or
awkward, which Im definitely not. The offer has
come up a whole bunch of times, but never from
the right source, which Id say, is probably the most
important part. The boys at my school with their
waxed eyebrows and designer jeans and Persian pride
and gold chains around their necks, theyre under the
impression that just because our parents come from
the same country that Ill automatically want to fuck
them. Au contraire, my friends, au contraire.
Rana, they say, come ride with me. Come in my car.
I have sweet rims and a bomb system. Ill give you a ride
home, which is code for please come suck my dick
and maybe Ill take you to In-n-Out on the way home
if youre lucky. And no Animal Style because that
would just be pushing it. I know this because I know
girls whove been stupid enough to agree to it and
have been kicked out onto the middle of Ventura
Blvd. sobbing because they pretended they were
ignorant of this secret language. These boys try to
lure me in, but I must resist such a tempting offer
21
23
You already have that fucking shirt! Its the same fucking
shirt as the one from last week!
I have this theory, and I could be wrong because Im
only human, but I think the emptier she feels inside,
and the longer my dads away, its like she has no
choice but to fill that fucking closet up. I know it
sounds like Im being tough on her, but its becoming
harder and harder to watch especially because its
only her and me in the house these days. She plays
the Persian radio too loud when I come home. I
know what youre thinking, the radio is good, the
radio plays music and is a lively and entertaining
machine, but its not that at all. Shes obsessed with
this program where the saddest Persians from all over
the world call in and ask this psychologist questions.
One time I came home a little high from school and
my mother had made a whole pan of French fries.
They were thickly sliced and brown all over like how
she used to make them when I was little and I hovered
over the stove and ate them slowly, pouring ketchup
carefully onto each one, letting the grease soak my
fingers up as some mother wept to the psychologist
about how her daughter had just come out to her and
how she thought it was just unnatural and dirty, how
could such a thing be happening to her daughter?
Doctor, its dirty, the woman said, these things are dirty.
The psychologist isnt such a bad guy, hes pretty real
24
25
26
- SET 2 -
PPP
PPPPPPPPP
THE READING
from The Direction Of Happiness
30
P e t e r Bu lle n
31
33
34
SS
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SSSSSSSSS
35
36
AA
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AAAAAAAAA
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M ISS E D C O N NE C TI O N S
R A BBI
JJJJJ
JJJJJJ
T A N D THE PR O F ESS O R
39
Jon Si nde ll
41
SS
SS
SSSSSSSSS
S E N T E N C E S LI K E SE E D S
I am ten, away at sleep away camp, my cabin-mates
staging a late-night pow wow. My bunkmate
complains theres nobody for her to talk to. Someone
points out my presence; she says I dont talk so it
makes no difference.
I am thirteen on my porch, listening to my dad talk
about loneliness. He tells me when a tree falls in the
forest and nobody hears it, it still falls. I say sound
requires matter to travel through. He says thats
irrelevant. Hes right. Air is everywhere, even places
without ears.
I am twenty-one in my dorm room, crying over a
breakup. The affection that begs to be expressed
runs up against the inside of my skin. I contemplate
writing love notes with no expectation for a response,
just to get it out of me. The fruit ripens and rots.
I am twenty-three in a cosmetics store, wasting time
trying on samples. When I arrive home with no
evening plans, I panic and take pictures so my face
doesnt go to waste.
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Su zanna h We i ss
45
KKKK
KKKKKKKK
M IL K L ESS
I hate the word skyscraper. It sounds so mean.
He tells me he was never sad. Cold maybe. And tired.
And broke. Too broke to buy the textbooks or fix
the stovetop or the shutters that banged against the
kettle when the wind blew against the kettle on the
stovetop or treat the measles. Too poor to buy a car.
Too tired to ride the bike. But he had to ride the bike
to get to the library to borrow the textbooks to light
the fire. To get the degree. To light the fire. To boil
the water. Uphill, both ways, in the snow. He studied
physics. Everybody studied physics. This was before
the invention of poetry on that side of the river.
He tells me it is good to be able to fill a room with
what you own and see it all without turning your
head.
He tells me in those days he siphoned gasoline with
his mouth. With his blue lips and yellow teeth and
white tongue, with his mouth. With his cheeks
strained translucent and veined. For his buddys
car with his mouth. All the time. To light the
fire. To boil the water. To sweat out the measles.
47
49
50
AAA
M O RR
AAAAAAAAAA
I S O N S D E S E R T L A M E N T
him how he packed so much life into his boozedrenched voice. He looked at me with those sad
beautiful eyes and didnt answer. Instead he called
the bartender over. Another drink for me and my
new friend.
We sat there drinking. The sun faded through the
small square bar windows. Jim finished his drink
and ordered another. I sipped mine, feeling the heat
coming off Jim like he was more than another fading
star. I asked him more questions. I have so many.
How do you know when a song is finished?
How does one become a Shaman?
Why wasnt Pamela enough for him?
This time he did answer. Go to the desert, he said.
You must go to the places you dont ever go. And you
must stay.
52
RRR
RRRRRRRRRRR
FANNY PACK
A S H O R T P L AY
53
perdita
Yeah... Thats right.... Im just good and thick, thats all
I am....
furia
... Hey, cheer up now, Perdy!
(Taking the fanny pack off the table and strapping it on
her head)
Lookie-here, lookie-at-me, with my fancy bag, just
walking round like I was King o Everything!
Me next!
perdita laughs.
perdita
furia tosses the fanny pack to perdita, she puts it on.
perdita (continued)
Oh yeahand lookie-lookie I dont think no ones
gonna eat me!
furia and perdita erupt with laughter. It takes them
a while to recover.
furia
(Wiping away tears)
Oh now.... Thats good... Oh yeah.
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perdita
(Throwing the fanny pack across the room)
All this laughins got me hungry again!
Id go for another.
Thinkin mallet or ax?
furia perdita furia
Oh, the mallet. Yes. Makes the meat so nice n tender.
End of play.
Ra ch e l Bu bli t z
55
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