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and gutters, and make his way across the street to his own
home.
But the next day hed be back.
Id see his golden head appear at the railing, and my heart
would start to pound, but Id ignore it. Theres time, Id tell my
self. Time for him to realize Ive been h
ere all along. Time for him
to see me the way I see him. Time for him to love me.
And I was right, for so long. My lifeour lifewent on.
Around us, things changed: Sickness swept through our
corner of the city, and my mum died, and his, too. Miles away,
someone named Nicholas Carr seized the principal city, Ver
ity, and made himself our dictator. Copper became less valu
able and my pa was paid less to mine it. Everyone wanted
steel for the steam engines, and e
very day the noise and
smoke of the city seemed to eat up more of the greenery that
used to surround it.
Still, we had each other, and we had time.
Some things had changed, and would always be changing,
I knew. But not us. Not the lazy afternoons on school holi
days, talking about f utures that still loomed far off. Not the
way hed move closer to me when we heard footsteps behind
us on the street, or the grins hed flash my way when he saw
a funny advert in a shop window.
I would always have him. I was so sure.
Until the hottest day of the year I was sixteen, when the
boywho had somehow become a man, suddenlyclimbed
the rusty ladders to the roof outside my window, dressed all
in brown.
W
hat are you dressed as? I ask with a grin, lowering
myself onto the hot shingles beside him.
Tam doesnt smile. I have something for you, he says
quietly, squinting up at the sun instead of meeting my eyes.
I nudge him, and he takes something from the satchel
slumped beside him and thrusts it into my hands. I watch
him for a minute, my confusion growing.
Hes early; theres no way hes done making deliveries for
the grocer yet. Tam, what
Look at it, he prompts, strangely shy. I begin to unwrap
the tiny paper package, which is heavy for its size. Its noth
ing too g
reat, really, he starts as I uncover a chain, delicate
and a little tangled, with a small brass heart at the end.
My eyes widen. Where did you get it?
Tams smile is proud. I bought it. It must have cost a for-
tune, I think. He must have gone to one of the antiques shops
downtown.
Im frantically buttoning my boots when Pa comes in, cov
ered in the same gray dust as always.
So hot today, he sighs, slumping into his usual chair in
a cloud of what looks a little like smoke. Even his mustache
is covered in it. They told us that p
eople up the line w
ere
passing out. He pauses and I realize hes studying me. And
whats your rush t oday, love?
Tams leaving, I say hurriedly, starting on the second
boot.
Where to? Found a band of ruffians to see the world
with at last? Pa chuckles, shaking his head.
Sort of, I m
umble, and he looks at me sharply.
Do you mean hes really g
oing, darling?
Hes joining the army, Pa. I tug viciously at the last
hook on my boot, which w
ont button.
A fter a minute he says softly, Did Ezra make him go?
I d
ont think so.
And y
oure g
oing now to see him off?
I nod, sniffling loudly.
All alone?
Please let me go, Pa. Id ask you to come, but I know
youre so tired.
Dont be late, my love. If theyre shipping out, the
crowdsll be fierce. I d
ont want to cry again, so I kiss his
cheek quickly.
Hurry! Dont let him leave without a pretty girl to wave
to him from the platform!
Ill be right back, I say, slipping out the door.
Its three flights of stairs down, but today it feels like a
hundred. I shove open the door at the bottom and a wall of
sunlight hits me; heat wobbles up off the cobblestones and
burns my skin.
Even before I can see, Im running. The clacking of my
boots echoes between the buildings of our complex until I
reach open streets, where everything is strangely quiet ex
cept for a c ouple of buggies roaming h
ere and there, look
ing for passengers. It never takes them long to realize that
theres nothing in Industria except the struggling families
of a couple of thousand miners. For a really good school or
any capable medical treatment, its an hour in any direction,
and a full days investment to visit a museum, posh shopping
plaza, or playhouse in Verity.
There are rows upon rows of rectangular buildings hous
ing the workers families, but I know the short way through
the maze. The sun bounces off bright buildings and glaring
windows, and by the time I start to see the crowds, my dress
is clinging to my skin with sweat. Pa was right about the
madness; people swarm like ants to the station and the air
is full of good-byes and demands for caution and letters.
I keep thinking about the family crowded into the flat
next door to Pas and mine whose eldest son joined the
floor, but I feel my way up the wall and run my fingers along
it. Metal plates, it feels like, welded together in an overlap
ping pattern with thick rivets at the corners. We must be on
a train. Probably in a cargo crate, like I see on the cars lined
up at the station. Those hold coal and copper, grain and ani
mals. Not p
eople. Never p
eople.
The only light comes from a rectangle on a far wall, an air
vent, probably.
When I stumble toward it, I trip over something and go
sprawling. My elbows burn and the cord cuts into my wrists
again. I grope about to see what I tripped over and touch
what feels like a shoe. It jerks away and someone exclaims.
Im not alone. Of course Im not.
I stand again, less steadily now, muttering an apology and
straining my ears. Above the hum and screech of the train, I
hear them: people all about me, girls, probably, crying and
whimpering.
How many are there? My imagination snakes away with
ideas about brothels and dark alleys. Everyone knows the
stories of the girls who end up being found: the ones who
had wandered off or gotten lost, or run away with a lover and
then returned in shame. But theres not much to know about
the girls who are taken, the ones who just disappear.
They d
ont tell stories.
They d
ont come back.
Is that my fate?
I blink again and again, as if that w
ill help my eyes ad
just to the darkness, and slowly pick my way toward the
The stillness is worse than the movement was. We wait and
wait. It might be hours or days. It might only be minutes. My
stomach is hollow; the air becomes even closer, and toxic
smellssweat, urineoverwhelm me. I want to hold my
breath, but the heat is oppressive; as the walls gradually
get warmer, it feels as if w
ere being baked alive. My dress
clings to me like a cobweb.
Time drags on, hot and damp and heavy.
I think back to the day Tams f ather let us r ide the eleva
tor box in the tower he had been contracted to build. When
the grating locked in place and the doors slid closed and we
began to climb up, up, up, I was sure I would be trapped
inside forever. But Tam wrapped one arm around me and
arm around her and pull her closer. I dont want to comfort
her. I d
ont want to comfort anyone. I want to be comforted.
I want Pa, and Tam.
The girls sobs continue, and I recognize them from the
journey here, in the train car. They grate on my nerves, loud
and unharnessed, and I wish she would stop. My favorite
memories of my m
other are the way she smelled like bread
even when we had none, and the times that she held me and
traced spiderweb shapes on my back with her fingers when
I needed comfort, telling me poems and stories to save up
in my head for later. I close my eyes, wishing she were with
me, and I trail my fingers along the girls back the way I re
member my mother doing. She heaves a shuddering sigh
and leans closer, growing quiet.
When I look again, a beautiful girl with big, brown eyes
and messy hair like wildfire smiles lopsidedly in my direc
tion, as if thanking me. She doesnt cry, but her eyes are wide,
and scared. This is no worse for me than for anyone e lse, I tell
myself, and I try to believe it. And then I smell smoke.
A handful of men move t oward us, and we shrink back
ward as one. The small girl who clings to my arm begins to
weep more loudly than before, and her cries fill me with
panic. Im helpless. Whatever they intend to do to me, I cant stop
it. I clamp my mouth even more tightly around the necklace
in my cheek, and I notice the w
oman in command conferring
with one of the men. She says something I cant hear and
then nods t oward me, her eyes glinting a little.
The man smiles crookedly and strides toward me; my