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Alana Walker
Dr. Barker
English 1102
December 5, 2017
Survivors Guilt
The Vietnam War was one of Americas worst wars to date. Due to a military draft, many
men were forced to fight a war they did not agree with. This, along with new advances in
military technology, led Vietnam veterans to have exceedingly high levels of Post-Traumatic
Stress Disorder (PTSD). This condition is prominent in most combat veterans; however, it was
not researched in depth until after the Vietnam War. Yusef Komunyakaa explores such trauma in
his poems such as At the Screen Door and Please. In both of these works, the speakers tell
stories, heavy with symbolism, about their own survivors guilt, moments of PTSD, and longing
The poem At the Screen Door has a dominate theme of survivors guilt. The poems
setting and plot is someone walking to a house to tell the person inside their loved one has
recently died in war. This information can be inferred by the reader in the poems title. The start
of the poem is laden with symbolism of new beginnings and clarity. The speaker says, Just
before the sunlight / Burns off the morning fog (lines 1-2). The first line expresses imagery that
illustrates dawn, which symbolizes one becoming a new creature, while the second line utilizes
eerie imagery to parallel the brightness before it. This symbolizes the clouded mental state the
speaker is in walking to the house, and how he hopes the experience he undergoes inside will
give him mental clarity. Above all, the speaker longs to be able to forgive himself for what he
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has done. The first two lines are also ended by a period, though they are not a complete thought.
This syntax is utilized to mirror the thinking patterns of the speaker and give the audience a look
at the speakers state of well-being. The shortness and quickness of the sentence reflects the fast
paced thinking patterns of the speaker because it simulates one being out of breath. Also, the
attention to detail in the first two lines show how the speaker is not ready to deal with his
After the first two lines of the poem, the audience is introduced to a character known as
she (line 3). The audience is never told the exact identity of she, but it can be inferred that
she is a loved one, most likely a mother or wife, of someone who has died at war. The poem
says, Is it her, will she know / What Ive seen & done (3-4). This implies the speaker has
committed a sin hidden from the outside world, and the burden of that sin is weighing on the
speakers mind. The speaker hopes the woman behind the screen door can see through him and
he does not need to use a faade with her. This is symbolism of a higher being to signify the
theme of survivors guilt and being forgiven of ones wrong doings. The speaker longs for
someone to understand his feelings and forgive him, so that he can forgive himself. The poem
then says, How my boots leave little grave-stone / shapes in the wet dirt (5-6). These lines
show the crimes the speaker has committed. In his mind, he has left a mark of death on the
world, and such a mark will be his final legacy. The diction of the lines show how the speaker
views himself as nothing except a soldier, and such status is the speakers ultimate defining
factor. He no longer sees the military as an occupation or duty, but as a character trait. This is
pressing on the speaker because he blames himself for so much death and despair. The poem
goes on to describe the speakers state of being as, Im no longer light / On my feet, theres a
rock / In my belly? It weighs / As much as the story (7-10). This shows how the speakers
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experiences are making him grow old and tired of life. It highlights the existential mood of the
speaker.
The name Paul has a very important symbolic meaning in the poem. The speaker says,
As much as the story / Paul told me, moving ahead / Like it knows my heart (lines 10-12). In
the poem, Paul is the man who died at war. It can be implied later in the poem that the speaker
was some way involved with Pauls death (15-20). The name has an ambiguous meaning in the
text because it is also a symbol of spiritual purging. In the Bible, Paul claims to be the chief of
sinners, but he was saved by the grace of God. In the text, the speaker is saying the sins he has
committed are too great, but he is subconsciously searching for forgiveness regardless. This
feeds into the theme of survivors guilt because it shows the magnitude of remorse the speaker
possesses. It shows that the speaker has not forgiven himself; therefore, he firmly believes he can
The poem Please also depicts aspects of survivors guilt and living in a world of self-
loathing, while also introducing the motif of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. The format of the
poem is its most distinct feature because the words on the page are organized to look like a
heartbeat. This represents the life in the words on the page, which is done to remind the reader
the poem is more than just a piece of art, and the experiences described on the page are everyday
occurrences for many veterans. The poems opening line is, Forgive me, soldier. This single
sentence sets the theme of the entire poem. The speaker is begging for forgiveness for something
he did not do. The speaker feels as though he is responsible for the death of one of his fellow
soldiers; however, this is false because the speaker and the fallen soldier were both following
orders. The poem shows the speakers regrets whenever it states, If I could make my mouth /
unsay those orders, / Id holler: Dont / move a muscle (lines 20-23). This implies that the
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orders were fatally carried out by the person the speaker is talking to. The speaker believes the
death is his fault because he gave the orders in the first place. The speaker also believes, with the
information he knows now, he would go back and change the orders into simply saving each
others lives. This mirrors the experiences of war. Many soldiers go in expecting to fight bravely
for their country and follow orders into kill-zones; however, when they leave, all they are able to
The poem is also ridden with war imagery so the reader can share the experiences of
PTSD with the speaker. For example, the speaker says, Forgive my right hand / for pointing you
/ to the flawless / tree line now / outlined in my brain (lines 2-6) in order to put the reader into
the speakers position. The memory of the tree line is etched into the speakers mind as a form of
PTSD. This is a haunting memory that cannot be forgotten. Also, war imagery and diction is
used to break the speakers train of thought. While the speaker is describing an attack, he is
interrupted by himself with Ambush. / Gutsmoke (27-28). This selection of detail is used to
mirror the thinking patterns of the speaker. As soon as the speaker is able to accept his emotions
about the subject, an obstacle is put in his way. The speaker cannot fathom emotions or deal with
the trauma of his past; therefore, he keeps himself distracted in toxic ways. The speaker says,
Ive tried to swallow my tongue (33) to show how PTSD is not a part of his life that he is able
to control. The speaker wants to stop shouting phrases like Hit the dirt (32), and he wants to
stop seeing images stamped with agony; however, the only way the speaker would be able to do
Unfortunately, the experiences faced by the speakers of At the Screen Door and
Please are not too uncommon among veterans. The poems underline the burden of survivors
guilt in the lives of former soldiers. This guilt is imposed by the trauma of wartime. Oftentimes,
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this type of trauma cannot be properly dealt with because, consistent with aspects of true trauma,
experiences cannot be shared. It is true that no one can fully understand what these veterans went
through overseas; therefore, many of them are left to deal with their experiences in the only way
they know how: with distractions and neglect. With this approach, they will never gain the
Works Cited
Komunyakaa, Yusef. At the Screen Door. Neon Vernacular. Middleton, CT: Wesleyan UP,
1993. 4. Print.
---. Please Neon Vernacular. Middleton, CT: Wesleyan UP, 1993. 133. Print.